Ok, here it goes:
1. I wish you hadn't disappeared so many times. Just stop leaving, so you can shut the fuck up about how sorry you are.
2. I put your life before everyone else's. You and your well being comes before my own, my family's, and before any of my other friends. You fell over on a fat girl and I thought the first person who ever had a positive impact on my life was dead. But I can't even tell you how terrified I am of moving.
3. You're laugh makes me really happy so please don't ever be sad. And when we pretended that you died, it shook me up real bad.
4. The world needs more people like you. Yous good at coming around when my smile's upside down. I hope we become closer.
5. You have so much potential to be so much cooler. Make an effort.
6. Fix yourself before you try and help anyone else. Take responsibility of what you didn't do in the beginning. You need to get help, so grow the fuck up already; I'm supposed to the child.
7. I don't want you to get the new job even though I'm pretty sure you did since you just tried making conversation with me about the weather in Austin, Texas. The second you say, "We're going to have to move to Austin" or "I got the job" it'll be followed with an immediate, "I'm moving to New York at the end of August."
8. God isn't making things happen. You're too young to realize that, and maybe you never will. Just don't forget to give yourself the credit you deserve, because YOU are the one who is doing all the work at the end of the day.
9. I wish we were as close as we used to be. I miss that. I miss you. And thank you for listening and asking how I'm doing.
10. I made the biggest mistake. I'm so sorry. I hate myself for it and doing what I did only made my problem worse. You wont leave but I know it'll eat you up and make things worse for you. I'm scared that he'll tell you one day, only to ruin our friendship. I love you, and I'm sorry.
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