The Origin of The Sign for Peace

Our hearts, our conscience, our mind, our imagination, or semaphore characters 'N' (Nuclear) and 'D' (Disarmament). Thank you,"The F Word".

I'm riddled with thoughts that are so ambivalent I can hardly handle anything that has to do with growing up. I don't want anyone to move away in hopes for something wonderful and prosperous to come to their new home. I don't want to hear anyone tell me that this time next year they will be living far away from what we both know to be home. Yet, at the same time, I can't stand to feel this odd sense of obligation for someone or something that has been hovering over me for the past 8 hours. I can't handle my own daydreams, emotions, theories, sense, or relations with people and the world again.

comic by OTHER
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I keep asking myself questions about things like: if I am worthy of all that surrounds me, if believing that peace will someday be a lifestyle taken on by the entire world, or even dreaming about it possibly happening, is just a naive way of thinking, if I should leave, if I should stay, why didn't I feel any love or amazing or even apprehensive, why do I stay? I have no idea how to even feel about anything or anyone. My emotions are so god damn indecisive.

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All I know is that I miss being able to have the option to take an obnoxiously long BART ride to the itty bitty city by The Bay just to sit with my recently relocated Best Friend Forever.

photo by Jessica Williams
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