Braiiiiiinnnsss by Rachel Cherry

Braiiiiiinnnsss

Zombies

1. Classic ADD (ADHD)
2. Inattentive ADD
3. Overfocused ADD (OCD)
4. Temporal ADD
5. Limbic ADD
6. "Ring of Fire" ADD

Depersonalization

According to DSM-IV, Depersonalization Disorder, in part, constitutes the following:

... a feeling of detachment or estrangement from one’s self . The individual may feel like an automaton or as if he or she is living in a dream or a movie. There may be a sensation of being an outside observer of one’s metal processes, one’s body, or parts of one’s body.

... Various types of sensory anesthesia, lack of affective response, and a sensation of lacking control of one’s actions, including speech, are often present. The individual with Depersonalization Disorder maintains intact reality testing (e.g., awareness that it is only a feeling and that he or she is not really an automaton) . Depersonalization is a common experience, and this diagnosis should be made only if the symptoms are sufficiently severe to cause marked distress or impairment in functioning).

OR.
Society is insane and expects different people with different backgrounds and different genetic make ups to learn and operate under one form of education.
The people with the disorders are the ones who create.
Where someone is good at one thing, they may fail in others.
But while failing in other things they carry the raw emotion they need to create something beautiful.

But what is beauty but health and happiness?
Or is talent creating something larger than life?
Regardless, every artist shares something in common. Disorder. Chaos.
Creation CAME from Chaos and Destruction. Nothing else. If your brain isn’t chaotic in one way or another, where would your creations come from?

Chapter 1

Luhlove. Not the kind you’d marry.

Virgil was right. Love is destructive. And it’s a hilarious human ideal. We tend to put labels on things that don’t need them.

Emo, hardcore, punk, preppy, gothic are labels we try to abolish so we don’t segregate people into groups. But the reality of it is, you are able to judge someone’s over all interests and person by the way the dress and the people they hang out with. You may not be able to tell what type of person they actually are, but definitely what they enjoy. We advertise ourselves on our tshirts. As well as Hollister.

But putting labels on emotions only brings pain to humans. I have mentioned many times before that the human language is flawed. We can say we feel "sad" but we will never be able to feel for each other. We can say we feel happy but nobody will be able to share that happiness.

The closest thing we can get to those feelings is by labeling them. A feeling. A mental disorder. We can get soooo close to the definition itself, but reality is different for each and every living being.


Someplace, somewhere, some 11 year old independent-original-trend-setting-hot-topic-kid disagrees with me. Possibly Gaia [lol].

Love is commonly misinterpreted.
I do not want to be with someone the rest of my life.
I probably will get married, but just because my parents expect it. Just like they expect me to go to prom. I really don’t care about it AT ALL. I don’t have a date. I’m just going to suck it up, go with friend, and make an ass of myself.

Example: Tyler. Paper Party Hat Prom.

So chances are, when marriage time comes around I’m going to suck it up, get with a friend, and make an ass of myself.

Example: Talia. Lesbians. Living in different states.

Don’t get me wrong. I love with every ounce of my being. This kid I know makes music. I can make things out of chaos, but I prefer to build off of others. When I listen to his music I get motivated and inspired to create something. Thus, feeding me like an animal on the food chain. Not only that, but our conversations spark an aspiration to do something great with myself. This dependency isn’t out in the open. It’s subtle and natural. Therefore, I love him. Not just because I "depend" on him unintentionally to create things, but because there is a feeling of admiration to others who can create out of chaos.

I care dramatically about his existence. And that’s good enough for me.

This isn’t the same love in movies. That love lasts for a week or a couple years. It’s why I can’t sit through a romance movie. The only thing that is in my head afterwards is that they probably moved on with their lives a couple years later.

Alicia "Marriage is nothing but paperwork."

If I truly loved someone, why not have benefits!?
But if I truly loved someone and they didn’t feel the same, I’d have to let them go. I couldn’t be sad about it.

There’s a difference between depending on someone to be there and loving someone. I think we tend to confuse that and label dependancy as love. Hypothetically speaking, if I had a boyfriend and he died. I would be upset because he was no longer here. I depending on him being here so he can continue doing the things he does while he’s alive, completely forgetting that is a natural for of nature [lol mythology class]. I would remember him by the things he did that I loved him for. Those things would be hobbies. Not his ability to ’be there for me’ as doctor Phil would say. Once again. That would be depending.

I posted this to share my thoughts. Sometimes others say things that you don't know how. For me, that person is usually Rachel. I hope I die before she does.