I've been back at my parents for the past five days and I'm most definitely dying. Since I've been here I have made the decision to move out and move into Buchon.
I have a lot worries as to how things will unfold, but mostly about the fact that there will be times where I will have no one but myself to rely on for help. I realized I have much more going against me than I had previously thought; I not only am not moving with Rachel but I'm moving to a city where the only person I'm comfortable going to for help and support is my boyfriend; I'm also going to be the only female living in the house which is not too big of a deal but if I all of a sudden start bleeding uncontrolably and end up scared or incredibly weak, then I'm surrounded by a ton of people who are most likely just going to be really grossed out. I don't want my living situation to cause me to become overbearing or difficult.
I have no predictions as to how things will end up or how I will go about dealing with them. I'm nervous.
Oh yeah, I've had a nightmare every night since I've been back here sleeping on the couch.
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