Currently, I am currently current.

It's 100 degrees out and I'm lying in bed sweating. My yellow cotton sheets are soaked and I remain here waiting, and waiting...

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Last night was the first night I slept in my bed alone in months.
Baby steps, baby steps
Now that I've finally gotten here I can't seem to pull myself out of it. I sleep for hours upon hours. Don't eat, don't weep, don't creep.
When awake I talk to ex-boyfriends, boys who'd like to be my boyfriend, boys who used to be potential boyfriends, and my real semi-half-boyfriend who probably doesn't want to be my boyfriend anymore. Then I sleep.
And sleep
And sleep
And sleep
And then someone asks me how I am doing and I laugh at them.